الخميس، نوفمبر 24، 2005

A car chase

today i went out with my younger brother(shady 11 years) to help him buying some stuff that he needed.as we were going back home we took this cab and everything was normal,,then suddenly i noticed that this three boys in the black car beside us are talking to me,,,i said 3ady it's a normal mo3aksa and they'll go,,but they starting following the cab and talking to the driver (who was listening to quraan) telling him things i could not hear very well at first,,and then i also thought they were gone,,to find them after 5 mins walking behind us and again they try to make the driver stops and this time i heard what they were saying,,"stop right now,,we want her",,,the driver asked me if i knew them and i suspected my self and i took a look and i had no idea who they were!!so they driver started to go faster and to run away from them and every little while they would reach us and tell him the same"let her go,,we want her",,i was so shocked and scared i did not have my pepper spray ,,and i had my little brother with me..i had all the ideas coming inside my head,,,who the hell were they,,what did they want?are they just a bunch of 'thuresday" idiots who are having fun by making girls scary??or did they want to kiddnap me??
anyway,,,they took a turn just before my house and the driver(allah y7'aleeh) was so brave and kind,,he waited till i entered by building and then left..
i am so shocked more that scared!! i believe they were just having fun,,and at the same time i can not understand how do these people think!!!
i don't wanna turn into a crazy person who sprays everyboy who comes near her to ask about time or direction but it really seems safer!!!!

الجمعة، نوفمبر 04، 2005

المجد لاطفال اتيين الليلة قد بلغوا العشرين

لهم الشمس , لهم الشمس والنصر و ساحات فلسطين ...
طول عمرى مبحبش عيد ميلادى مش عارفة ليه , يمكن عشان باعد احس أنل عملت ايه السنين اللى فاتت و انا فين دلوقتى على الخريطة؟؟؟
(teen) و سن عشرين ده سن سخيف اوى ,, خلاص الواحد مبقاش
و برده لسة مبقاش 21 يعمل كل اللى عاوزه .
اليومين اللى فاتوا كانوا صعبين حابتيين ,,كنت حاسة انى بدور على حاجة مش بتاعتى ف بتحاول تفلفص منى ,
بعتذر ان افكارى عشوائية و كل فكرة فى حتة بس الى حد ما حياتى برده كدة .
حاطيت خطة المم بيها نفسى , لازم أرجع أشوف الشباب و أحوالهم و الانتخابات
لازم اروح الجامعة و أشوف شغل الطلاب
لازم اذاكر و اقرا و اخاص شغل الترجمة اللى فوق دماغى , لازم امضى وقت مع أخويا
المهم الصبح دايما بييجى أحسن , بتاع بكرة ولا بتاع بعده ولا بتاع بعد خمسين سنة المهم تنو ييجى و انا عايشة
شكرا لاصحابى منى و صدقى و لمى و ويل و جويي
now i am 20 i have to think of my future,,which is the harddest thing ever,,i am not a teen anymore so ppl will expect i stop doing foolish acts,,and still i am not 21 in full controle of my life
i've been passing through a hard time,,it's like searching for something that used to be mine and maybe still but alwayes trying to run away from me,,,
sorry my thoughts are very randoma nd incoherent
tomorrow morning will alwayes be better than today's night,,maybe the day after tomorrow or the morning of a day 50 years from now,,,
i need to take a grip of my life again,,start seeing shabab,,and attending my classes,,see the tolab and maybe studing,,i need to spend more time with my brother,,,
thanks to all my friends mona sedky lamma will and joey